A trip down memory lane

I have always envisioned myself having 2 boys. So I kept each and every bit of clothing that has laid upon Hagen's little body (I do mean little...I weighed him the other day and he is a whopping 24 pounds...he will be 3 on the 31st of May). Every t-shirt (even the ugly ones Ryan got him last minute at Wal-mart), every sock even if it doesn't have a match, every thing.

I got those huge Ziploc bags that you suck the air out of with the vacuum. I had 7 extra large ones and it was time to go through them. I opened the first one and pulled out a camo swankie blankie...one that he never even held let alone looked at...and I bawled...like a baby I just cried and cried. Ryan thought I was possessed and snuck downstairs to fix the oven. The thought of getting rid of his stuff whether he used it or not was so hard for me!!

There were a few things that I had to keep. A preemie outfit that was my favorite of his when he was new. It was a cute little sun suit...blue and white gingham. Here it is below. I took a picture of it with my foot to show you how tiny it is!!

I threw away anything that I would be embarrassed to pass down and the rest I separated...alot. Winter and Summer of course, then short sleeve t's, long sleeve t's, shorts, matching sets, one piece outfits, swim suits, long pants, long sleeve button downs, etc. etc. It was ridiculous. I pulled out some newer PJ's to keep at Papa and Pia's house for those last minute bath sessions etc. and Hagen's old cloth swim diapers for them to keep at their house with the pool. I will keep it piled on the guest bed in their little piles for a few years until I decide to part with them. Check it out:

This is Pia's Pile...the PJ's and swimwear. The pile on the floor is cute little gowns and newborn stuff that I LOVED of Hagen's. Some can be used by the new one. Pia is the stain master and will make them all spick and span. I will then food save the ones that she will not be wearing to force my Daughter In Law to put my Grandson in. ;)

He has the cutest things. I can't believe I have to get rid of most of it. There is NO reason to keep it, but so hard to get rid of it.

When I picked Hagen up from school today he had the most beautiful Mother's Day gift. It was a tissue paper flower with a pipe cleaner stem. I twisted it around my purse and he is so proud.

He asked me today if we were going to the doctor so that he can get that baby out of my tummy. Man, it is going to be a long 6 months!!

Tata,

Carrie

I feel like I have been initiated into Motherhood officially...

Hagen was ICKY SICKY on Thursday night. I picked him up from school and we were on our way to swimming. He was very quiet but excited about swimming lessons. He “gets” it now and knows how so it is fun. Anyway, we get there and he is just acting weird. I was talking to another Mom and he was franticly saying he needed to go big potty. I ran him in there and he unloaded (I’ll leave it at that…you are welcome Casey). Thank the lord the baby is potty trained because it would have been a disaster in a swim diaper...OK, I'm done Case. I came out and told the teacher that we are just going to go home and he doesn’t feel well.

On the way home he started whimpering. I was on the phone with my Mom and I asked him if he was OK, and he started crying a bit and then he did it. While I was at a stop light with nowhere to turn he projectiled all over my car…a few times. He was crying, I actually yelled MOMMY to my mother through the phone, I didn’t know what to do. I pulled over to a bank and got him out. I striped him down to nothing in the parking lot and gave him a whores bath with dried out baby wipes I had in the car (note to self: put new wipes in the car) and cleaned out as much as I could.

Ryan is a very helpful and loving father but there is one thing the Mr. doesn’t do…vomit. I understand so I told him that I would take care of it if he would just bathe the baby. I cleaned up my car as best I could and high tailed it to the car wash. Damn, they close 5 minutes ago…they would have loved me to get there just before closing with a vomit smelling car!

Anyway, I called his school to inform them and 4 others got sick that afternoon so it was probably something they ate, but I kept him home on Friday to be sure…I’m a good mom that way. He was fine on Friday. We took Ryan Schlotsky’s to work and picked him up and went and parked by a park, opened the hatch back and had a picnic.

On Saturday we went shopping with Papa, Pia, Adam, Rebecca, Noah, and Emily while Ryan worked and got the baby girl a little sweet pea gown to come home in. So cute! Well, we came home and it was almost time for dinner and Hagen said he wanted to go to bed without a book, vitamin, or brushing his teeth. Weird?! He is very night night ritual focused so this is not good. I got him to bed and was singing him a song and he started whimpering again…said he was going to “frow-up”. I grabbed him and just made it to the bathroom. It was terrible. I got him in the bath and cleaned up the mess all while acting like it was no big deal (while I’m dry heaving). Get him to bed and Ryan comes home. I tell him I am in a foul mood and steer clear. I grabbed my pepper jar and headed off to bed to rent a movie. (for the record, I didn't finish the jar...I drank most of it and ate quite a few, but not the whole thing....still no stomach issues. Isn't that weird?!)

I don’t understand these viruses sometimes? He was fine on Mother’s Day and this morning. I hope it is just random…because he was with Noah and 2 week old Emily on Saturday. I would feel TERRILBE if they got sick!

Tata,
Carrie

Happy Mother's Day!

The Day that I became a Mother is one that I will never forget. I was induced, a bit nervous at the unknown, etc. It was honestly the easiest thing I have ever done (thanks to good drugs at good timing). I never felt an ounce of pain. I felt a cramp...not even a bad one and asked for the epidural. It was smooth sailing and a handful of pushes and it was done. Perfect...absolutely perfect.Hagen, you were such a good baby. You rarely cried, you were not demanding, you slept good, etc. Thank the lord you were because unknown to me I was suffering from Post Partum. I was embarrassed about it because we had tried for years to have a baby, did the drugs, shots, etc. to have you and then you were here and I was suffering. However, it was not really bad PPD. I do remember all of your baby days, I remember how much you were loved, how easy going you were/are, and I didn't dread any moment. I was just feeling different than I thought I would.

One thing that was difficult to handle when I couldn't get pregnant was going to the mall. It was full of new Mom's with their beautifully dressed babies strolling around. It was torture for me...I couldn't take it. SO, once you were here we spent alot of time at the mall...most of the time not buying anything but just walking around feeling like I was finally in the club and I belonged. Stupid I know, but I also know that people out there that want to have a baby know what I am talking about...no matter if you have been trying for a month or years it is tough if it doesn't happen RIGHT then when you are trying.

You are so sweet, caring, loving, smart, EASY going, understanding, helpful, just perfect. You recently found out you are going to be a big brother and you are so excited. You got the baby a giraffe that plays music the other day and placed it in the crib that your little sister will sleep in. Yesterday you got it and put it up to my tummy and played her some music. It was really sweet. Mama and Pia got her coming home gown yesterday as well. It is a sweet little Kissy Kissy gown. Pia will be making a pink hat to match of course. She will be darling just like you!

Daddy was telling you yesterday that it was Mother's Day and you need to tell me Happy Mother's Day in the morning! Here is the conversation:
Hagen: "I don't have a Mother."
Daddy: "Yes you do...Mama is your Mother."
Hagen: "Ohhh...OK"

You didn't know that Mother and Mama were the same thing.

You and your Daddy cut roses from our bushes in the yard and put them in a vase for me, got me and egg McMuffin AND chocolate donuts, and got me a couple of cards. Daddy started the laundry and is hanging some things around the house including a new picture thing for your room. I am honored to be your Mama...I love you more than all the stars in the sky!

Love,
Mama

Swimming Lessons DONE!

Hagen has been taking refresher lessons to his "drowning lessons" last year. He started last week and it wasn't very pretty...but this week it is like it clicked! Watch:

He did so well that the teacher asked him if he wanted to go down the slide. I was very curious as to what he would do after in the water. To my amazement he flipped over to take a breath and then swam to the steps! Wonderful! I highly recommend these swim classes.

Mama is so proud of you Hagen! AKA Bruce the Shark (from Nemo)

Love,

Mama

Big Brother Video!

More than likely a little lady...just like her Mama! OK, not really...

So, I went to the doctor on Tuesday and it was to check for abnormalities. I am of “Advanced Maternal Age” which is the nice way of saying I am a geriatric pregnant girl so the risks are higher for abnormalities. Ryan and I did this testing with Hagen just to be prepared if there was something different. I was stoked because this is the test that told me EARLY on that Hagen was more than likely a boy!

Ryan was sweet and said my Mom could come. So, Mom and I went to Patrizio’s for lunch beforehand. I got soup and salad and then screwed that healthy eating up and got a piece of flourless chocolate cake and ate the whole thing. I guess I forgot about the weigh-ins?! I told the nurse it was only fair to take 3 pounds off because that cake was big and probably 3 pounds…maybe 4.

Anyway, we get called in and I immediately tell the sono girl that I will not be leaving without an estimated guess…I know it is just a guess and if she is wrong I will not hold it against her.

That baby was moving all over the place! It was kicking, bouncing, just crazy…that’s what we like to see for sure! She did all of her measurements and all looks good so far…ok, let’s take a peek. That baby froze and had its legs straight up in the air (like Mama) and had them kinda closed (not like Mama). But, we thought we saw a white mushroom…which would mean boy! Yeah! It’s another boy! Wonderful news and we are so excited. She wasn’t sold on that…she didn’t feel comfortable with her decision. She was poking at my belly, doing everything she could to move the tadpole and then she said, wait I see 3 lines. I think it’s a girl. We said, yeah! It’s a girl! Wonderful news and we are so excited! We never did see the mushroom again…just kept seeing what looked like a pecan…or 3 lines.

She spent a lot of time scoping things out and finally said I am 80% sure it is a girl. I’m in shock. I just knew I was going to have 2 boys…I’ve never thought of myself with a girl. Plus, my older brother has a girl and two boys, my younger brother has a boy and a girl, and what were the odds of me having one of each too…slim to none in my opinion. We are so excited though! What a true blessing it is to have one of each. Most people that I know have one or the other…it is rare to have one of each.

We told Hagen that night that he was going to be a big brother. We want confirmation on what it is later before telling him that. He had a great idea! The baby can sleep in his old crib! Man, that is one sharp boy…AND…he said that it can take a bath in his bathtub with him! How generous…I hope he doesn’t try to drown her. When we told him he looked at me and squinched his nose and said, “Mama? You have a baby in your belly?!” He is now kissing my belly and his daddy’s belly before he leaves for school…Daddy needs to squat down a bit more because it is kinda disturbing me where Hagen’s aim is. It’s not RIGHT THERE but pretty close! I will post the “breaking the news to big brother” video when the laptop is healed…it is getting healed today.

Tata,
Carrie

P.S. My craving? Peperoncini’s…not just the peppers, the juice and all! It is not hurting my stomach AT.ALL. This morning while Hagen was eating his breakfast, I grabbed the jar out of the fridge, hid in the pantry and drank the juice…ALL OF IT. Down the hatch. I cannot get enough. Someone on facebook said I need to name her Pepper…not a bad idea.

Out of commission

SO much to post about...my little man swimming like a shark...that we are more than likely having a girl...breaking the news to Hagen becoming a big brother...just tons of stuff. BUT, our laptop has a virus...TERRIBLE timing! I am so busy at work which is always good but don't have time for an update. Just wanted to share that little bit of news!!

Carrie