I swear I'm alive...just lazy...

Why do I have that same feeling of “I haven’t been to church in forever” when I don’t update my blog! I have no excuses except for just being LAZY. Honestly lazy lazy lazy! So here is another round of randomness:

1. Belly shot…here you go ladies…29 weeks and getting big!

2. I've been so lazy lately that our house actually resembled an episode of Hoarders this weekend. It was nasty...Ryan and I would talk about it and then shrug our shoulders and just left it. We picked it up on Sunday night and all is right in the world, but it was kinda nice to just not do anything about it all weekend.

3. I got Hagen a glow in the dark pig that changes colors and is on a charger thing. I put it on his nightstand and sweet baby sleeps with his face pressed against his bed rail so he can see it when he wakes up. It is a neat one...got it at Pottery Barn Kids...when he gets to the point of having to go potty in the night he can just grab the pig off the charger and take it with him to the potty so he can see. Cross your fingers that it continues to work. The past 2 nights he has not woken up crying.

4. I actually got up with Hagen yesterday morning because Ryan had a Fantasy Football draft the night before. Hagen slept till 8:30 which is great! But at 12:15 I told Ryan I had to lay down for a minute...I woke up 2 hours later just in time for Hagen to go down. I felt like a winner... I'm having this weird thing going on...when I stand up I get out of breath SO easily...it's like she is sitting on a blood vessel or something and I get worn out. I have to sit down and catch my breath...

5. Pia's knee is doing so well! There was a moment that she could have to have another surgery to break up scar tissue, but she has been in intense therapy for 2 weeks going every day to see if she can avoid it. We'll see!!!

6. I went to a baby shower on Saturday. It is for a high school friend that is pregnant with boy/girl twins...Georgia and Rhyder. We are due 2 days apart...she is about 4 foot 10 inches. I feel like a wimp complaining about being out of breath. She looks adorable and I can't wait to see her little body when she is really pregnant! She is 29 weeks and they weigh 3.1 ounces and 3.4 ounces already...

7. We are going to the lake house this weekend...on the Lake of the Ozarks. We decided against going to Destin this year to enjoy Grandpa's lake house instead. Remember, he passed away in January...my parents bought his lake house to keep in the family. I can honestly say that I have NEVER been this unorganized before a trip EVER. I am a list maker...haven't even started a list. I have to get bed rails, a blowup pool, a night light (May take Bacon...that's his pigs name), and then of course some of my special diet food in case the Piggly Wiggly size grocery store doesn't have the things I want/need...

8. Even though the instant oatmeal that is Lower Sugar Maple Brown sugar has the right amount of carbs/protein it jacked me up on my blood sugar! I'm supposed to be below 120 and it was 155...crap...it was SO good and out of my usual egg/toast routine...boo...

9. Poor Ryan is now being bossed around now. "Ryan, can you be a doll and get me this?" "Ryan can you get me the remote?" Miss Bossy britches has arrived...I can't help it. Remember I am creating the most precious human being right now and cant be bothered with little things.

10. On the bossing him around thing...I did laundry yesterday and I fold it and put it in the basket and then take it to the closet to put away. Well yesterday I had 2 loads folded in one basket and it was kinda heavy. I asked Ryan (my pack mule) to take it to the closet for me. He did and then BOLTED out. I said, "well while you were here you could have helped hang your stuff." He said he bolted because something was in his eye...my ass...but it was kinda funny. You should have seen him put the basket down and dart out the door...

11. One last tidbit...Hagen got 2 stickers for being a good boy. At the time he was wearing his underware and that's it. Where did he decide to put the stickers??? yep...pasties...Ryan was so proud.

That's all I got for now ladies. Sorry so boring...

Carrie

French Fry Nighmares...not all related

Someone brought in French Fries to the office…it smells so good…so good I may just have to go punch them in the ear…gah! I don’t think I have smelled ONE French fry since I have been here for 3 years…why now? Why when I have a cup of raw carrots to gag down…by the way, 1 cup of raw carrots is hard! It is much easier to down a big can of V8…

So I have a dilemma that I need help with. But first a cute story of Hagen James…

The other night was not one of his shining moments. He was being naughty so he actually went to bed with no book, no story, and NO song…it was really bad. It makes for a sad night for Ryan and I and of course Hagen. But the next morning he gets it and says first thing that he is going to be a good listener so he can get a book.

On the way to school he was reading me a book in the back but said he didn’t know the words. I told him that maybe when he learns to read he can read a night night story to Hazel. He said, “Unless I’m mad at her and then she won’t get a book.”

Nice…I felt like a big winner. I explained to him that I was not mad at him but upset for how he was behaving and we cannot do that before bed.

Ok, so now onto my dilemma…

Hagen has become a scardy cat…I’m talking it is the middle of the day and won’t go into the kitchen from our living room (which is wide open) to get a drink by himself scared. (by the way, I keep a cup of water on the kitchen table so that he can have a drink whenever he wants)

We have recently put a stool under the light switch in the bathroom so that he can turn on the light by himself to go potty. BUT he is scared of the hallway. SO, we put a hallway nightlight thing that has a flashlight that sits on it that he can grab…nope, not good enough.

We are talking shakes like a leaf scared ladies. What do I do?

Another part of this scared stuff is waking up in the middle of the night from bad dreams…mostly involving scary doggies…isn’t that sad… AND I remember when that started. I am an idiot and showed him a sonogram of Hazel when she looked like “a little puppy”…well my friends…there you have it.

I know someone out there has dealt with night terrors with their little ones or being scared to leave the room etc….what do I do?

Stupid carrots are staring at me…I’m going to have nightmares about stupid dumb boring carrots…

Carrie

Example Diet...

First of all, thank you so much for the sweet notes/emails yesterday. It is difficult to admit that you are not "balanced" all the time, but it is just a fact of life...and it can be dealt with very easily. Anyway, I appreciate you girls so much!!

Here is an example of a day in the life of my diet. Ladies...I was up 30 pounds by 26 weeks of pregnancy with Hagen...by the time I had him 13 weeks later I had lost 3 pounds...healthy pounds...it was not unhealthy let me reiterate that.

You eat all day and are not starving...you may not be satisfied as much as a piece of cake but you are not hungry by any means.

8:00 - Breakfast
1 egg, 1T diced ham, 1T Velveeta shreds cheese - I scramble in the microwave...
1 piece of wheat toast with a little spread on it...I use Brummel and brown...it is yogurt based and good
Water...no milk...NO FRUIT!!!

10:00 - AM Snack
Fiber One bar
6 almonds


12:00 - lunch
Sandwich thins by Orowheat
6 slices of Turkey (3 ounces)
1 piece of Kraft American cheese
1 small apple
1 can of low sodium V8 (there are small cans and larger cans...I do the larger...make sure to do low sodium)

3:00 - snack
1 sugar free pudding cup (trust me...they are good)
10 animal crackers
1 small box of raisins


6:00 - dinner
1/3 cup of brown rice (may not look like much but it is)
3 ounces of meat - small chicken breast, piece of fish, small pork chop, etc.
Spinach salad with lots of veggies on it - I save the fats and put rice vinegar on it...or balsamic...and lots of fresh ground pepper. My mom dilutes ranch by using 1/2 ranch and 1/2 any vinegar...just a tip.
1/2 cup edamame


9:00 - bedtime snack
String cheese
1 1/2 graham crackers...this is one whole rectangle and 1/2 of one.

The key is to balance your carbs and protein. Just because a box of wheat thins say that a serving is so many crackers does not mean it is correct with normal standards. I have found that the box is most of the time way more than a normal amount.

What you do is this...for example:
- the box says the serving size is 22 crackers...for 19 carbohydrates.
- That means that each cracker is .86 carbs.
- a normal serving of carbs is 15...so you take .86X15 and get 12.9...round up and you have your normal serving of 13 crackers.


Also, when looking at something like bread...sometimes a serving is 1 slice and sometimes it is 2...compare...try to keep your carb serving at 15. Protein servings are 5.

Also, for fruit...do not have fruit before lunch or after dinner. Also, no milk for breakfast or bedtime snack.

Here is the breakdown of my protein vs. carbohydrate servings for each meal/snack:
Breakfast - 2 protein and 1 carb
AM Snack - 1 protein and 2 carb
Lunch - 3 protein and 3 carb
Afternoon Snack - 3 carb
Dinner - 3 protein and 3 carb
Bedtime Snack - 1 protein and 1 carb


A normal protein serving is 5 grams or 1 ounce and a normal carb serving is 15 grams.


Hope this helps you!!! It sure helped me...

Carrie

The troll is out of her cave and loving some rap music

I have not been in a good place. Very dark hole. When Ryan and I started trying to get pregnant for the first time and it didn’t happen I was very depressed and had to call in reinforcements in the form of some happy pills…they did wonders and just helped ease my tension and anxiety. Since then I have bouts of depression…just random…

Well, I think last week being sick maybe triggered up some feelings. I was being mean, I was saying things I didn’t mean, I was crying at NOTHING, I was very sensitive, etc. I once again went into that dark hole. On Sunday night I was bawling after Hagen went to bed and was trying to explain to Ryan that I had Post Partum feelings again…I couldn’t explain it. Now, Ryan is the sweetest non-confrontational person you will ever meet. He was at a loss of what to do. He was just staring at me and I told him, “Don’t just sit there and stare at me” and then got up and went to take a bath. I cried in the bath for 45 minutes and he didn’t check on me or anything…went to bed crying and he didn’t come in…I felt lost. I was also mad at my Mom and couldn’t really pinpoint what I was mad about.

I talked to my doctor yesterday and got on some pills…I already feel better but that could be a mental thing like, OK…help has arrived. Ryan and my Mom ARE my support system. Yes, you ladies are a big part of that support too, but I confide in them the most. I think the worst thing I can hear when I am in this funk is, “Ya, you have been acting weird lately” or “Yes, I have noticed you have been a bit down” because that for some reason makes me feel like they have been secretly talking behind my back (which is not the case) about what a crazy wack job I am.

I talked to Ryan on Monday night and apologized and told him I know he had NO idea what to do with me and told him if it happens again to just give me a hug and he doesn’t have to say anything at all…honestly…just hugging me and letting me know that he’s there is all I needed. To be honest, I would have been scared of me too on Sunday….it was not pretty and not something I am proud of.

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SO, on other things, my family hasn’t talked to my older brother and his wife and their 3 precious babies (not anymore) in 3 years. It is sad..we have honestly done EVERYTHING we can but they choose to keep themselves separate from all of us. Sadder that they live 5 minutes from me…

Well, Hagen was listening to “Hillbilly Bone” on my phone (he loves that song) and was pushing buttons and playing around with it. Then it went silent…I said, “Hagen let me see that..” He gave it to me and it was Matt’s home phone! Out of ALL the people I have in my phone (I’m a recruiter remember) he had to pick their home phone to prank call! I gasped and hit end….it was only 3 seconds, but my heart stopped…my word…

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I love LOVE LOVE the song “Pretty Boy Swag”…go on…go listen to it…and yes, I am a secret lover of Rap music. Now, make sure no young ears are around if you play the unedited version… I heard it on the way to work this morning and it is my new fav…

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I will be posting my diet in the next post or two. It is a FABULOUS diet and you can lose weight the healthy way for sure! I’m not hungry during the day…maybe just a bit unsatisfied…like a big hunk of chocolate cake would be nice!!

It shows you how many grams of carbs and protein to eat at each meal….I have learned a lot from it!!

Tata,
Carrie

What up! Random post...

I’m so sorry to be MIA for a few days! I know how difficult it is to be “away” from me for that long. But, I’ve been on my death bed so suck it…

I will have to do this post as a list…sorry about that.

1. Hagen is 3 and has had his tubes in his ears for 1 ½ years. They worked their way out (which is normal) and guess what? He has an ear infection. So he is on antibiotics and is running around like nothing is wrong…very hyper actually. I will be keeping a close eye on him because if we start this ear infection trend again, sweet boy will be getting another set sooner rather than later. This morning he said his tube hurts…he has just been hearing me talk about it is all. He was running around like his butt was on fire a second after that.

2. I went to the ER on Saturday night/Sunday morning at 2:30. Ryan was sleeping in the guest room because I was so sick and I woke him up saying I was going to the ER. He freaked…I told him it is my sinus’ and not baby related so chill and I’ll be fine. I walked into the ER (a new one by our house…I think I was the only patient in the hospital and I interrupted nap time) and the lady behind the counter asked if she could help me. I said I was 6 months pregnant, have a cold or a sinus infection and feel like my head is about to explode. She just stared at me for a bit…I told her I was not leaving. I finally saw a doctor and told him that I am doing the netti pot, saline, Vicks, zyrtec, mucinex, and have had about 4 hot baths and 2 hot showers and I can NOT clear my head! He said “Maam, I will give you an antibiotic and you need to do saline and Vicks and call your doctor on Monday”…I started crying but stopped because the pressure was getting worse. So basically, nothing…nothing can be done for your sinus pressure if you are pregnant on the weekend.

3. A new thing? I piss my pants…a lot. With this sickness I have realized that I have lost all control. I did with Hagen but not nearly this bad! I was putting his diapers in my pants because every time I would cough or sneeze (which was a lot) I would pee. So yesterday I wised up and braved up and got some bladder control pad things. Would n’t you know the punk that works there let out a little chuckle? I said, “Laugh it up boy! I’m pregnant and sick…go ahead and laugh it up!” He said “I’m sorry Maam…” punk…

4. I went to my first Matilda Jane party last night! Coco introduced me to it first and I have been in love with TM’s little frocks. I went and the smallest size I could get was 12 months so I ordered 2 little dresses for next winter. She will be having another party on September 1st for the new stuff…SUCH cute things!!

5. Ryan is out of town…left yesterday and won’t be back until Friday…Boo.

6. Update on Miss Hazel Grace: I had an appointment yesterday to check on a few things
a. Gestational Diabetes – I’m a weirdo and like the drink. Not a good sign. I’m waiting to see if I have it again…did with Hagen. It is actually not that bad, you just have to follow a strict diet and prick your finger 4 times a day. It was the best thing that could have happened to me as I was gaining weight VERY fast by eating crap. UPDATE: I do infact have Gestational Diabetes...Been there done that...it's not forever and it is not about me but her so whatever it takes.
b. Sonogram – I had a low laying placenta so he wanted to make sure that moved up…it did. Hazel weighs 2 pounds, she was sleeping while holding each foot with a hand, had the hiccups, and has a beautiful heart. I love seeing all the organs in working condition you know? Like all 4 chambers of their heart, the spine, her little belly going up and down as she is practicing breathing. I did have to roll over on my left side as I felt sick…laying on your back with that baby’s weight on your blood vessels can make you a bit light headed.
c. I am now going to be seeing him every 2 weeks…is it crazy to you that I am already going every 2 weeks? Man, this is going by FAST…

7. While I was at the doctor I told him I am feeling better but not that much better. He told me to try Claritin D. So I got some on the way home and took one at noon yesterday and went to bed. I could not sleep but rested a long time. Then last night I was wide awake?! What? I’m a sleeper and usually have NO problems sleeping! I even took a Tylenol PM so what is the deal? This morning I figured it out. I got the 24 hour extended relief Claritin D…NON-DROWSY. Yep, they make a 24 hour Non-drowsy kind. What the hell? Who wants a 24 hour Non-drowsy anything! I am confused…and feel stupid…and warned my boss if he finds me face down at my desk at 12:00 to just wake me up every hour to use the restroom (wait, that isn’t a problem because I have a Noah’s Ark Size piddle pad in my pants). Seriously…sister is going to DIE tonight. I’m so excited! Plus Jersey Shore is on…

8. LOVING Hazel Grace more and more. I received my first monogrammed gift the other day from sweet Heather Cheatham. It was so neat to see her name!

9. I ordered some art for her room. You can see it here: http://www.enjoyart.com/single_posters/antiquecoastalartsigns/VintageCoastalArtWoodSign.htm Instead of Monterey at the bottom I have them do “Hazel Grace”. I cannot WAIT to see what it looks like!!

10. Pia has graduated to a cane! She went to get the mail out of her mailbox yesterday and it was the first time she had been out of the house in 3 weeks…she said it was wonderful! 3 more weeks and she can drive.

11. Christmas…I’m already thinking about it because with a new born I may not want to do much shopping…but then again I may! I have no ideas for Hagen. He has so many toys but doesn’t play with them a lot. I don’t know what to do…ideas??

Tata,
Carrie

Icky Sicky Darney's!

Whaaaa....I feel TERRIBLE! I've been coughing all week...nothing bad enough to go to the doctor though so I just decided to wait it out. Well last night before bed my throat was killing me and my nose stopped up. Ryan had just told me that a girl at his work has Mono so of course I started getting the same symptoms. I do that...if you break your toe mine hurts too. Sass, yes my butt hurts because you broke yours.

I went to the clinic this morning and he basically after I told them I am 6 months pregnant he pretty much wouldn't diagnose anythign...nothing...didn't even do a strep test. It was like he was afraid to give me something. While he was checking me out Hagen announced that he needed to go Poo Poo really bad...nice. by the way the reason I took him with me is because Ryan can mow and trim the bushes way faster without the master of disaster with him.

So I left with a couple of prescriptions that I MAY be able to fill out after I talk to my doctor. I called my OBGYN to make sure I could take them and was going to leave a message for the on call Dr. to call me...well the phone system is down....so I'm just waiting.

I also took Hagen back to the doctor. A little background, he had tubes put in 1 1/2 years ago...they worked their way out recently which is normal. He has been snotty and froggy throat all week. I took him again today to the doctor to make sure he isn't indeed sick. Well, he has an ear infection. I hope and pray that we are not on that road again. It was 3 months of back to back double ear infections!

So, Hagen and I are icky sicky...poor Ryan...I am reminding him how awful I feel every 10 minutes at least.

By the way, Ryan is trying to put Hagen's pants back on after him going to the potty and his thingy just hit Ryan's ear...Ryan is a bit creeped out.

Also, when I told Ryan I didn't feel good this morning and I was going to the doctor he told me, "Well, you've had a good run..." Thanks alot...he said I have had a good life so it's OK for me to let go. I'm so loved...

Carrie

Chucky is the devil

So we went to a friend's son's birthday party last night at Chuck E. Hell...I despise it. Gattitown is a WHOLE different thing...love it there, but Not CEC.

The party was at 5:00 on a Wednesday...normally not good for the working parents, but you know...it was kinda nice! Not having to plan your weekend around a birthday party.

Hagen had a great time playing on all the rides, ate 3 pieces of pizza, and then the show started! AND Chucky came out. Hagen FREAKED! I was practically choking at how hard he had his arms wrapped around my neck.

There were some rough boys and we all know that Hagen is a bit more dainty...I was proud of myself holding back from protecting him. I'm really trying to work on it as Ryan and I have talked that I could be enabling the wimpy behavior...very true. now, I did watch closely and would have drop kicked one certain little hell raiser if he laid a finger on him. This kid sucker punched another little boy that was younger than him 2 times! FOR NO REASON! And the mother (whom I went to high school with) did nothing...wasn't even watching him at all...he was raising hell and she had no idea. OR did she? I've heard he is like that all the time and they just ignore it while other kids cry and bleed.

Hagen bought a lolly pop, a tootsie roll, and a glittery ring with his tickets (an me 2 airheads but he didn't know) and was so proud.

Another story: Hagen was learning about traveling this week at school. Yesterday they made some beaded bracelets! I was so happy when he handed it to me thinking he made it especially for me! Nope...he said it is for Daddy. I couldn't even hold it in the car. He did...to make sure I didn't take it. Then Ryan was tucking him in to bed last night and he said, "Daddy, you can sleep in your bracelet if you want to...and then give it to Mama in the morning when you wake up." So Ryan "left" the bracelet on the counter for me this morning to wear to work...

One little tidbit: Hagen is not a picky eater, but I am always wanting to throw in new things here and there. While we were in California Merrilee gave him a parfait of yogurt and granola. Hagen LOVED it. So in the morning he has been eating a huge bowl of vanilla yogurt with Granola...he is in heaven. Thanks for the tip Mer!!!

Tata,
Carrie